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Braces free lower teeth!

I took off my lower braces today!
Was actually too lazy to blog about this but it feels quite significant so I thought I had to record it down somehow.
The dentist told me it will feel weird and slimy, and it really did. I never thought it would feel slimy though, seems kind of strange for teeth to feel slimy.
Come to think of it, my dentist has seen me change from a buckteethed 14-15 year old into a 18 year old with nicer looking teeth.
About 4 years!
He has seen me visit his office in my secondary school uniform, in my nanhua plaits, in dyed light brown hair, in NP's t-shirt, in ugly hair, in ugly and faded hair, in short hair, back to dark brown hair....
BUT FOREVER IN UGLY HAIR >:((((((((

Anyway, wow. One more realisation today. I shall have a realisation for every post.
HAHA. Thanks for fixing my teeth, Dr Ong!

Gonna return next week to get my retainers and start wearing them full time.
I am not good with these though, wearing things in my mouth full time I mean.
I had to wear teeth plates last time full time as well and I mostly cheated by wearing them at night only.

Argh I can't type anymore, my head is throbbing. Damn the headache, had it since 5 hours ago, went to nap for 3 hours and it's still there damn.

I shall leave you with this:

 The guy in white was trying to pry a secret out of the guy in black. He actually already knew his secret (that he's living with a woman) but he wants him to admit it. Black does not know White knows his secret, and this is how he responded:

 

HAHAHAAHAHAHAHA!

It's not so funny here, but I really laughed out loud when I watched it.

This is my first J-drama (whee), it's called Hotaru no Hikari.

It's quite amusing and only 10 episodes, go watch it!

I was wondering for days what those weird red streaks on my foolscap papers and notes were until I realised today that they are from my nail polish. -_-|
No wonder there seem to be new streaks every time I look at my notes. And I thought something creepy was going on.

Anyway, I realised I just can't seem to get enough sleep the past few weeks. It's like I can ONLY sleep 4-5 hours every night. There's just simply no time for me to sleep more, no matter how hard I try to carve out more time. Strange, I didn't seem to have this problem the previous semesters.

Ok, so that's two realisations today, everyone.
Gotta go back to work!

Gerontophobia

I've got Gerontophobia.

Fear of growing old. Stop please, time.

I am halfway in but I really don't want to enter adulthood.

I will no longer be a teenager in slightly under 2 years.

Scary, scary thought.

If only there's a time machine to bring me back to childhood, to when I was around 8 years old.
Life then seemed much better then.
But I am probably just viewing the past with rose tinted glasses. The past always seems much better doesn't it?
I think I am more afraid of becoming a worthless adult than growing old though.
I am afraid of becoming a person that leads a mediocre life, doesn't accomplish anything remarkable and then passes away with few caring.
But I suppose that description fits many people in the world, since not everyone can be Steve Jobs or MJ after all.

Anyway, I was watching a music video on youtube and saw a comment someone had written in reply to another person, who wrote that he hates being a teenager because he feels that he's still a kid inside when everyone around him is changing. 

Here's the comment:

"Well my friend, don't worry about being a kid, I remember a phrase from a mexican writer named Jose Emilio Pacheco that says "There's no adults, only aged kids". So try to enjoy your life as you were a kid as long as posible. Greetings from Mexico." - bobocafe2

This did cheer me up a little, maybe I'll keep thinking of myself as an aged kid then. :)