Was just thinking about what kind of books I like to read. When I was younger I think I read almost exclusively adventure and fantasy. But then again children's books usually seem to be of these two genres only. Suddenly remembered I was really into the outerspace when I was in primary school so I kept borrowing books on the universe and stuff. And I will read and re-read the same few pages about the solar system over and over again in the one encyclopaedia I have at home. Plus because I didn't have a printer last time I kept forcing my mum to help me print pictures of planets at her workplace. She will go like "what you want me to print? I don't know how to search la!". Then I will go "Aiya just go and search solar system then print the pictures that come out la! Please!" HAHAHAHA.

Anyway when I got older I liked chick lit and romance. Those girly kind of novels. And teen fiction. About school life and bitchy girls and etc. Liked them for awhile, and recently I suddenly got really sick of romance. I realised it's actually always the same old plot over and over again. Fantasy, sci-fi and adventure appeal to me more recently. Reading a story that is as far fetched from reality as possible makes one forget about real life for awhile I think.

Kept trying to motivate myself to do tutorials by chanting in my head "come on, you can do it. Come on." but after 5 seconds of shuffling some papers around I give up. I didn't even look one question and I gave up. Just the sight of tutorials make me lethargic.

Back to tumblr and youtube.

Took a nap this afternoon and dreamt of four moons.

Ok it's nothing really special, but I just felt like I should write it down so I won't forget it (and how it looks like).

Anyway the new blogger is weird.

I had this entire week of LIFE WITHOUT A JOB IS THE BEST KIND OF LIFE feels right after I quit work at Zouk and now it's all gone and I feel like looking for a job again. I can't understand myself.


I love lazing around! Lazing around is my life! But I think a small but sensible part of my brain is always there to jolt me into thinking "Rachel, you shouldn't be wasting your time like this, bumming around. Crawl out of your cave and go make some money." It just refuses to let me chill. But it actually seems like a good thing. Good brain, good brain. 


Eh. Anyhow, school's starting tomorrow and I probably won't even have the time to work. But what should I work as even if I want to get a new job though? For slightly over two years all my jobs involved waitressing and serving food and drinks of some sort. Never anything else. All F&B. That reminds me. I just got the biggest tip of my waitressing life last week! Someone actually gave me a 50 bucks tip. !!!!!!!!!!!! I can't keep it though, gotta put it in the tip box where the accumulated tips will be divided among everyone at the end of the month. HOWEVER, I have unfortunately already quit. So I don't get a single cent from that 50 bucks at all. Sigh. Never mind, I don't think I am very deserving of it anyway. Alright then I shall end abruptly here because I wanna go watch some videos. 

Just set my new timetable as my lock screen wallpaper and now I get a mini panic attack every time I pick up my phone. Torturing myself, that's what I am doing. SCHOOL SUCKS. I DON'T LIKE SCHOOL. WORK SUCKS TOO. I don't want to go to school yet I don't want to graduate. Don't know what I want la ccb

PS. I don't usually swear but the thought of school makes me angsty

Why can't I have supernatural powers?

Gahh I am so awkward around new friends everyone should just leave me alone and never talk to me

So many things have happened since my last post!
Got a new job, quit that new job.
People at that job were mostly great, but I quit because it wasn't really my kind of job I guess.
I sort of love the late hours though - work usually starts 9pm and ends around 4/5am - because I like taking the company van home in the wee hours of the morning and staring out of the windows at the empty streets and roads. It's kinda therapeutic.

Anyway, apparently my male colleagues at my workplace thinks I am manly (in both voice AND mannerisms) and are convinced I am lesbian.
Even after interrogation and clarifying that I am straight at least thrice I could tell they still believed I have found someone of the same sex sexually attractive before.
And when I commented that a female colleague is pretty one of my male colleagues actually gave me a suspicious look.
God help me I think I have completely lost whatever little feminine charms I used to possess.
Must be because all my female colleagues are so attractive and feminine I end up seeming like a man in comparison.

Brb changing my sex