Just another post complaining about myself and school work again. Don't read, I am really only typing this to myself. It's boring and whiny.

Have been watching videos (mostly variety shows) for the past 5 hours. And I have a test next tues.

Make that 2 tests.

Someone help me please!

I have no self control.

I really don't feel like studying today, and I predict I won't get any studying done tomorrow too.

I need to hire a monitor or something to monitor me at home, really.

My mom is slacking off, she used to be strict but now she totally doesn't bother me.

BUT I NEED HER TO BOTHER ME!

Worse thing is I am like this everyday, not only today.

Yuenyee tells me she feels guilty whenever she slacks off, cos she knows she should be doing her work, but I really don't feel any sense of guilt.

I just get small panic attacks when I suddenly think of the work I still have to do when I am halfway through a video or slacking, but then I just continue slacking.

Then maybe 1 hr later the panic attack comes again, then I forget about it, then the cycle continues.

How to feel guilty????

Someone tell me please.

I need to feel guilt for not doing work.

Si liao la, si liao la.

Wa bo su ka tak cei.

Wa ai ke sao tor ka.

Kam sia.

Bye bye.