Today's the first time I faked sick and went to get a MC. Do I sound like a good student? Hahaha. I lied that I had a headache but I felt really self conscious and obvious, like I was doing something wrong. LOL. The doctor asked all the necessary questions, did all the necessary checks but I have a feeling the she didn't really buy it though.

Anyway I failed my TP today too. Warm up was fine, but during the test itself... STRIKE ALL THE KERBS! 
Seriously, this is the first time I struck kerb so many times. Usually I would just strike once or twice once in awhile. Embarrassing max. I don't even dare to look at the tester, though he was really nice. Every time I stuck a kerb my heart sank. I think it sank a hundred times today, it's now at the bottom of my feet. The more kerbs I struck, the more panicky I got, and the more panicky I got, the more kerbs I struck. Vicious cycle.

Top 10 things I hate in this world:
1. Kerbs
2. Kerbs
3. Kerbs
4. S Course
5. Kerbs
6. Kerbs
7. Parking
8. Nissan Sunny
9. Kerbs
10. THOSE DAMNED KERBS!!!!!!!

Meh now I know how failing a driving test feels like. If you have never failed it before, well it feels really demoralising. More demoralising than I thought it would be. I even skipped Jap class (I've never skipped it EVER in these two years), and binged on comfort food. Had a chocolate waffle and a McSpicy meal. Ahh the sugar, the fried chicken, the carbs and the coke made me feel better. Love you all~

Once piece of good news though is that I got into Straco Shanghai for my internship. Whoopee, off to Shanghai for 5 months. :)

Today's the first time I heard my dad's voice in 7 years. Don't know whether to feel happy or sad.

Sometimes I really wish I kept in contact with old friends. Kinda sad how I used to really enjoy their company and now we don't talk anymore. Maybe I should start being less antisocial and make new friends instead of thinking about old ones. But making new friends is so hard! Building lasting relationships take too much effort. I think I rather stay home and sleep.

Just finished reading Dan Brown's Digital Fortress (first published in 1998) and I found it funny how the characters were using pagers. The book is good, but reading it seems to bring me back to the nineties. Not necessarily a bad thing though. Actually besides the pagers there was nothing else to indicate the book was written 14 years ago, but one mention of pagers and my impression of the book immediately changed. Suddenly I can't help imagining the characters in nineties clothing, watching tv programmes on huge CRT televisions, surfing the net with dial up modems.. and you get the idea lol. 

Now I am re-watching Princess Hours (2006) and I noticed the characters were using those lousy (but used to be uber cool) flip phones with the ultra tiny screens, and even portable CD players. HAHA. I miss the days of infrared and bluetooth! Ah so nostalgic. HAHAHA.

Omg, randomly clicked on the "other" tab under messages on Facebook and found a ton of unread messages from people whom I haven't added as friends. Some from months ago, one from 4 years ago. Now I must seem really unfriendly :|

I used to be able to sit in a library and read books for hours. Literally hours. Just reading and reading non stop. No food breaks, no stretching breaks, just the occasional toilet breaks. I loved how I felt then, for during those hours it truly seemed like I was living in the fictional worlds of the books. The disappointing real world doesn't exist. The sad thing is I don't think I can do it now, because my attention span is getting shorter and shorter. Whenever I see pictures of beautiful libraries on tumblr, I wonder how it's like to spend hours reading in them but I realised I would probably have an urge to check my phone every once in awhile. This spoils the experience. How I wish I can be like before, easily immerse myself into books.

Technology ruined my mind :(





Here's one of those beautiful libraries I am talking about by the way:

National Library of the Czech Republic, Prague, Czech Republic (photo by Raphael Neff)

Hastily threw together a portfolio for the internship interview tomorrow. With that portfolio and my lousy mandarin speaking skills, I think I am bringing a penknife to war. I wouldn't even call what I did a portfolio, it's more like a few certs and a cover page. Let's hope they don't ask me for it.

This is like my third interview within a month. Did so many interviews I even dreamt of it during my nap just now. My interview's at 2:30 pm tomorrow, I dreamt that I was still putting together my portfolio at home until 2:30pm, then someone from the company suddenly called and told me impatiently that I can postpone my interview if I am still not done with my portfolio. And in my dream I had a strong feeling I won't pass my interview cos of the portfolio thing. I hate interviews. Interviews shouldn't exist. Employers should assess potential employees by getting them to work in the company for three days. Isn't this more effective? That's what I think anyway.